wat an irregular update in my blog.. lazy to write, dunno wat to write or dun have the time to write...ahaha.. which are all the reasons that i can think of and i can see... but anyway sat service in church was really powerful..it said "WORK RELEASES OUR POTENTIAL" u all must have been "huh?? sure anot.. work very the tired one leh.." hahaha.. of cos lah.. if not would u have the skills u have right now to sit in the office, in school to do the things, to develop your potential.. hahaa.. if u said have then i said.. "siao"!! most of us must have been idleling six days, work one day.. ahhaha.. which is wrong..the bible says that God worked six days and rest on the seventh day!! so there only one rest day and the rest of the days are our potential to be release to the things that are given to us!! haha.. so u all got to work k!! dun be lazy!!!

imagine a scenerio where a wear-down hut at a beach.. inside the hut u and your love one met sitting down... wind the wind that blow thru the hut.. what will you talk about?? what will u say to one another..
saw a drama.. in it.. though maybe mushy but if u hear it u will understand what it really means.. "without u..i can't breathe, without u.. i got noone to go..i love u" what do u think mushy?? nope.. it's just a simple sentence of expressing the love out.. warmth may feel your heart..

imagine..God and u together sitting on a bench.. watching the the river flow downstream.. with trees shading u.. and talking.. simply saying simple love sentence to Him.. is that hard?? i do not think so.. that's what we are created for.. not for busyness not for the temptation but for the relationship with God

 sometimes people said that when u found a good book to read, u will be addicted to it.. sleep with it, eat with it, shop with it, laugh with it, cry with it, hug with it.. have u ever found such a good book? i did for once.. it's a book given by my ex-CGL bro aloysius call "Youth Ministry" by christine caine.. to be serious speaking.. i read the first few pages and put it aside.. but right now i picked it up once again and read it.. it caught me.. not just with my bare eyes but my spirit that caught it.. what was revealed in the book. some may said.. "aiya just a book itself, what so great with it??" but to me.. for me to really read finish a book.. it must really be a book that caught my spirit that i will reread it once again with no boredom in me.. 



when i was waiting for my frd irene to finish her work, i was reading the book.. to be serious speaking i tot my eyes was playing on me.. cos suddenly the light dim and then shone brighter again..just when i was reading this chapter on "a love for the word". and seriously speaking!! i mean really seriously leh.. the presence of God just bounced onto me.. i was like so captivated on that chapter.. to me i may not really be a lover of word but trying to be.. even as a CGL now for 5 months, two weeks back then i really started to love preaching the word of God.. as the very begining.. i was afraid.. afraid to speak in the public afraid that i will cause the members to backslide afraid of alot of things.. but right now.. i am enjoying it. i guess it was a preparation that God prepared for me to partake it.. though it's may seem late but it's just a right time that God sets.

right now i dun even know am i able to wake up tomorrow morning which means TODAY!! to go back to sch to do my fyp.. they are meeting AT 10AM.. *pRAY* hopefully can.. hehehe... am i purposelly!! NOPE!! i'm not.. but those who know me well is that during holidays i dun like going back to sCH!!! which i hate most!! whahha.. but it's the last sems before i graduate at the end of the year.. got to push it thru!!!

anyway i just wrote a truthful letter to a person who wants an answer.. i guess it's really up to the person to change it.. as my usual saying "change is for better, up to u to change or to ignore" i'm not bad.. just that i had already been giving chances again and again for the person to change.. but it seems none.. for awhile yes.. but later on back to its old spots..

out of sudden i wanna CUT my hair?? should i or shouldn't i?? in the first place... when my frds asked me along to go cut hair...but i said "NO .. wanna leave my hair long.." but today today TODAY out of sudden again wanna CUT my hair.. asked alot of opinons.. they all say cut lah... wat else u wanna want?? hahahah so i decided with Irene together we will go cut hair on... 10th march on monday!! cos only MONDAYSSSS then i'm free.. hehe.. might cut or dye or both.. depend on Jasper my hairstylist.. she was the one who asked me to left my hair long after 2 yrs of short hair!!

hahah.. brought a new wallet for myself.. and also bought for irene.. identical.. but different colour.. it's chio man!! tell u.. very the uniquely make..and it's cheap $26!!! new arrival somemore!!!

 BEAUTIFUL right?? hehe..

haha.. anyway it's time for me to get a new wallet.. cos of my pinky wallet that is spoilt..

hm... let me retrace back what did i do for today..

haven't blog for two days liao!! haha.. busy and tired :P is it an excuse?? hahha.. like the rest of people in the world.. whatever or whenever they can't do definitely excuse sure pop up of it's mind to cover up.. (pls don't say not u hor!!) 

went to do a french manicure cos curiosity lah.. and know what!!!!???? i find it too FEMINIE!!! hahaha.. but done it so got to bear with it..

  so how is it?? nice????
 
imagine in 2-3 days it can so many thins.. now its seems like i'm been given a new responsiblity.. and got to be even more accountability..  sometimes thinking why me?? why me?? i'm just new in the area of the stuff i am and i'm starting to get used to it.. but i guess God knew that once i'm comforted i would not want to move on with it once again.. now i got to ask God even more to take a extra careful look on myself.. some one once told me that the faster u climb the harder the fall will be..I really dun like cos i knew the smell of it.. as i have fallen before.. it's not a nice experience but it's defintely once that worth it all.. as usual some of u know that i have a very "low-self esteem" hahha.. that's why to me it's very the unbelievable!!

wanan take this time to thanks some of the friends.. cos been to cg just now.. the semon is about being a true frd. *DRUMS PLESE*

FIRSTLY IS GOD!! THANK YOU FOR THE THINGS THAT U HAVE GIVEN TO ME, FOR LOVING ME, FOR BEARING WITH ME..

SECONDLY IS IRENE!! hey been frds for eternity liao.. been thru sweet, hot, sour, pepper in our lifes.. without u bringing me to church in the first place i wont be where i really am right now. thank God for the frienship that He given to us..thanks for building me up, loving me, edifying me, speaking the truth to me.. telling me wat u think of me.. thanks for all the little gifts u have given to me.. it's still in my house.. though collecting dust :P heheh..

THIRDLY IS BRO ALOY!! SUPRISE SURPISE your name appear here..thanks for being like an elder brother that i never have.. becos of u that have faith in me, keep on drilling in me that "i can do it" despite my constant negative tots in me.. discipling me, not sparing the rod but using the rod to "shape" me up. encouragement and wisdom u given to me.. some still mades an impact in my life.. some i forget liao (hehehe..) though i seem the least to have the potential of CGL myself but using me despite of watever stuff i make! :)

FOURTHLY IS AH BEE AND ARIS!! been through high and low together with u guys!! u guys were the one that seriously made an impact in my life more instead of the class.. whenever i think back.. it's always make a smile on my face :) through many arguments in our life, we still make it thru THANKS BUDDIES!! :)

FIFTHLY IS JOLENE!! hahha.. your name here..hey.. u the one who brought the joker out of me.. if not i will be the only quiet person in ur class.. sometimes though u might be crazy but becos of your crazy i am able to be more CRAZIER!! wahahhaa.. your companion to me is important.. never did i knew a person can flow so well together with me in sch :)

SIXTHLY IS LIN, EVELYN AND FATIMAH!! though i do not know u all for that long.. but becos of u all .. my life in the repeated semster is so different.. sometimes used to feel odd one out.. but hey.. u guys always included me in!! THANKS!!!

SEVENTHLY IS ZIQIN!! one of the few males brother that i felt closer with.. it's tru irene that i got to know u.. someone that i feel i can share with, not regarding the fact u are a brother but is like a buddy to me in church .. though i do not talk to u as much as irene.. but one thing i know is that there is no awkardness between us :) thanks for being my pal!!

EIGHTLY IS MEIYI!! u are one of the pal that goes thru the stuffs that i do together with me.. sharing with one another revelation, telling each other what is going on in our life.. becos of u my life as a helper seems interesting and exciting cos sometimes we have a "healthy" competitions! u are still the partner in crime that i have :)

NINTHLY IS CAT AND ALVIN!! u guys are the one that stands by me, bear with me when bro aloy left for his studies to new zealand.. becos of your support i am able to get thru it.. becos of your belief in me i am still able to walk with it .. u guys are like a pillar in my life that helps to build me up when i'm uncertain of my life in the CG.. that fights the fight of faith together with me!!

THANKS FOR BEING MY TRUE FRD.. FOR HELPING ME TO BE WISE, SHARING MY BURDENS AND HELPING ME GROW (SPRIRITUALLY)!!
if i missed out anyone.. i will add u in when times to come!!!!

PS: those who knew Javier.. pls do pray for him as right now he's in hospital due to high fever  *PRAY*

wahahha.. wahahha!! today my new specs have arrived!! people, help me see if it looks nice!! most of my frds say it looks great on me except my MUM!! she said "old" :( *sad sad* so people leave comments k?? so how do it look like?? VOTE PLS!!!

hahhaa.. finally FINALLY i went swimming today!! it was good man..and can wear my new swimsuit!! ahaha.. realize alot of :fats: around me!!!! must go GYM!!! i got no energy only swim two laps tired.. hands pain!! *lousy of me* and know what>> the POOL IS DIRTY cause me to have rashes around my mouth!!! wat a "beautiful" image!! wahahah..

know what!! instead of getting sun-tan which i have but also SUNBURNT!! UNFAIR UNFAIR!!! must go buy sun lotion but it WASTE of money!! anyone wanna buy for me?? hahaha.. was searching thru some pics.. dun wanna write much liao.. but put pic!! :)

there's a pic that i liked.. not bad..it's a nature.. to me anything that is related to nature..i'm will be happy.. it's the scene the wind the colours that attract..colours are the things that God put in this world for us to enjoy

right now i watching the NKF (National Kidney Foundation) charity show.. raising funds for the kidney failure people out there in singapore which do not have enough to pay.. to me the most parts that impacted me the most is not the stunts the actors, actresses, popular singer does.. in fact it is those touching moments of the video clips they flim that reveal the patient's life.. many stunts that can prompt us to raise the money for them.. sometimes true, their stunts prompted us to call.. but it's really the life of the people that needs our money to continue for them to clean their kidney every week.. there's one particular scene that touched me.. there is this kidney failure patient.. who is a mother.. she has 8 children and out of that 4 children got inherit of their mother's kidney failure.. few years back.. her elder son died, last yr her elder daughter died and in between her spouse also died..imagine.. a mother that has to go thru all these funeral where a white-haired person send off black-haired person.. to this mother, nothing can wash away her pain, her sadness, her guilt..

some of the people might us.. why did God loves us still give us these pains to go thru, gives us this life to went by.. how can He really said He loves us yet give us these pains?? i myself asked these questions before.. dun God experience the same emotions that we are experiencing right now?? Jesus who was His only son came down to earth and die for us as a human being that experience life and death, health and sickness... God is teaching us the things that are percious to us so that we will know how to cherish it, how to take care of it.. sometimes we might complain unfair.. He's God we not god.. but at this very moment.. He selfishly gave His only son to us.. remember life may to u may be unfair, but yet it is fair if u know how to see it not from your own view but God's point of view..

God wanna give us a good happy family.. but it's all up to us whether to make it a happy family that shares life or a family that wrecks harvco in the family.. true sometimes it not up to us to where we are born , it already is a bad family.. but it's also us to make an impact.. true might be hard but it's for our own character to build it up.. remember to speak in LOVE not condenmation!

WAHAHAHAH!!!! WAHAHHAHAA!!! today is my last day in my work cell.. so happy i am.. but hey can't blame me... human i am :) there's also human flesh that i still have.. so sometimes.. things or words i might said wrong things!! but hey no one is prefect except God :) AMEN!!

but right now rushing thru my attachment report and attachment logbook to be finished on tuesday to hand up which in fact is today!! as a saying goes "ask and you shall receive it.." so i asked my supervisor can i hand in next week.. if not white hairs will burn thru my roots.. hahaha.. but one bad news is that NOW then our supervisor tell us that the product we are doing now is only a TEST PIG!! i was like "huh?? now then u say.. " but guess if it can work.. then we just hand in that.. do not care.. as long it WORKS! *PRAY* tonight gonna have an overnight prayer meeting at church.. it's a GOOD one man.. long time since jan... gonna pull down the annointing of God down from heaven :)

as i was typing my blog.. suddenly a word come thru my mind.. "emotions" alot of people do have alot of ups and downs emotions going thru their days..even me.. yesterday i was so excited to go sch.. but due to my sensitive nose.. CANT!! today can't wake up due to not enough *BEAUTY* sleep (someone pls give it to me..zzZzZ) but as i read the daily book i read.. it perks me up.. cos everything God creates as a purpose even our emotions.. imagine.. life without emotions.. is it walking like a dead man? is it living the life of black and white?? who would want this.. definietly not me! as i have been thru it.. one thing is that is NOT a good idea.. true, u might feel u r free from the emotions but yet becos of this your heart turn cold no one could touch u deeply, no one could really have a close friendship with u just a surface one.. u feel no pain, u dun trust people, u dun care about people.. that is what will happen..trust me.. i been thru it, done it and emerge Victory out from this cold heart and right now.. a hot and passion heart is renewed by God!!

so right now i'm a person that enjoy colours not black and white.. but hey..sometimes it's good to have a quiet surrounding..when u can silently enjoy it.. here a picture of life and colour if u know to appreciate it