hi guys.. back here to pop in my first beloved blog... decided after such a long time.. to reveal the new spot the new add of my blog... it might not be as good or as positive as here.. but its definitely my own personal tots!!

HEY pple, finally decided to close this blog here without giving u guys my new link...
it's also part of an action that i want to do it..
thanks pple, for taking the effort to read and comments and tag too..
without u guys.. this blog will be dead slience...
but with u guys... this blog have been active and more noisy!!!
thank you for taking the path otgether with me and standing by me...

thank you people for all your LOVE that inspire me!! :) CHEERZ!!

                        "cloSeD DowN"

finally a whole new year is here once again in 2005...
what will be awaiting us in this yr???
definitely joy love laughter sadness anger will be in this path...
nothing can stop except the mind of man..
what have u choosen for this year?
what is your theme for this year???
what have u choosen to stand still for this year??
what have u learnt in the past 2004 to be implemented better in 2005 this year??

just now i was watching a show.. call "the carol christmas"

just came back from my job interview... to be honest.. it was my first interview for my first job.. and i was NERVOUs like siao.. can u imagine.. even the TP mock interview was not that damm nervous.. but that was nervous man!! hahaha.. but anyway the good lady said that i was okie.. could be accepted.. so i passed the FIRST round of interview!! FIRST ROUND ONLY LEH.. imagine wat... i got to go back for a second interview tomorrow same time.. u all might think okie lah.. but do u know where the place?! it's at SENTOSA!!! imagine.. hahaha.. i was like "hahaha..okie lor.." but really Thank God for this job... *pray pray that my pay will be $1.5k pls*

haha.. yesterday I WENT ZOO!!! hahaha.. it's was fun man.. went in the morning at 9am return at 7pm.. wow.. my  leg was screaming HELP HELP!! I WANT SLEEP.. hhahaha but hey the ice-cream at the zoo "ben and jerry" was not bad.. quite nice and quite addicted too..but one bad thing is EXPERSIVE... one waffle cone $1 and 1 regular scope $6.15 so together $7.15 hahah exp right?!! but bo bian.. only zoo have that ice cream cone.. hahaha


was having lunch few days back with my frds.. and one of my frd just asked me.. "what the best ting that happen to u in 2004?? and what the bad thing that happen to u in 2005?? " what are yours?? mine.. i could not decide or rather i was neutral... everything seems the same to me.. in a mono-constant.. that everything happens as it is... haha.. imagine that..

supposedly to dedicate each entry to each person.. but come to think of it.. the only worthy one haha already dedicate..

" when we clasp our hands in prayer....
         ......God opens His. "

from the begining where U picked me up the Easter 2001.. where my tears flow uncontrol..where U held me with no conditions apply with no fault to be pointed at.. U draw me back to your arms..

from then onwards.. my life changed becos of U.. cos i know what it will be like without U.. U took me under your arms.. with conditions that i put to myself that i will be just a member where i not be risen up so fast at least in that year.. but U always hold surprises to me.. within that one month.. U told a person to give me that chance.. a chance for me to picked up where i have fallen before.. a chance for me to be real where i used to be fake.. a chance where i tot i couldn't be but can be... this chance.. U given me unconditionally...

In all my life i was risen with push of Faith and your hands that covered me.. thru trials thru hardships thru sorrow thru bitterness thru tears thru joy thru laughter thru love thru U... i always remember how i have been risen up to where i have been before.. it was not easy but yet U believed in me.. U show me verse when U give me dreams and visions upon me.. indeed last year.. my dreams and visions was fullfilled.. thru alot of obstacles.. i was thrilled.. with no regets.. i was happy.. becos i knew that's where i wanna be... where i could tell of what U done in my life.. where i could relate to others thru the msg U prepared for them.. where my voice could not be a singing voice.. U used it to bring them closer to U, to your courts to be beside U.. U given me talents which i tot i could not have.. risen others as a leaders for U that i tot i could not do it.. gaining confidence in my speech to the crowd where i couldn't, having an anointing of drawing people talking to me freely where i tot i could not... where times its seems so bad in those sheeps U always bring me out of it.. where i seems like a small peas in the whole talented field of leaders U bring me up.. bringing together with me breakthrus after breakthrus where it couldnt have been me that make it thru..

it was always U that bring the couldnt In me to "CAN BE ME".. but somehow things started to wave started to move.. where i tot i could handle it but not anymore... but yet... i did not reget it.. becos i know there's a lesson each time this things fall U will show me.. indeed again U show me but also with tears..  if i were to choose again.. it will still be these road these path...

Thank You for all the things U done for me, love U given me, faith U encourage me...
without these.. i will not be where i am.. or i could not see myself to be...
my life U created and my life i owe U.. and my life that U love...
i will definitely be back but not as the same person but a different person yet still with the heart that U created for me.. that's a promise to U..

"I LOVE U" that's the words i have not been saying since the time i turn back... and that's the words i know it must be put with actions...where it will definitely be done... that's my xmas gift to YOU

December has started... snow has fallen.. season has come with a feeling of thanksgiving, love that feel the atmosphere... where everybody that knows or do not know each other gather together to celebrate this special month where every once a year happens..

for me... this month will be a month of dedication to the people that been a part of my life... throughout this whole year.. and with the new 2005 year coming i will be closing down this blog.. to open another new blog that significant my life a new start... that will be decided later... each time each new entry will be dedicate to a person that imprinted it's footsteps into my life and held an important place.... no one will be first or second or last as counting who's the importance... starting for this entry right now..

hahaha.. aiming for a new hp.. and it's my pattern..i guess by now u all know that i keep up with most of the trends of hps and will change it to the newest one that captures my eyes.. haha so.. now one hp has caught my eyes.. and yes... PRAYING on a wishing start for XMAS PRESENT!! *hint* haha.. i dont mind bro aloy buy it for me from new zealand or wherever he is as my xmas gift HOR!!! ;P yup.. but this time round.. it's not with my character.. it's not... i remind u all again.. it's NOT A NEW MODEL that will be coming out but is ALREADY OUt.. that is

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went to watch the movie preview of "Alxendra".. tot it was going to be one of another boring fighting war show.. that we presume that we are going to leave halfway... but hey.. we did not went halfway but in fact watch the whole show to its end... haha even got to catch a cab home cos NO BUS!! WHAT THE SKY!!! no bus.. and the night rider only operates on WKEND n PUBLIC HOLIDAYS!! pls goverment use more common sense!!! if u wanna attract more tourists!!

anyway back to the movie.. the one that captured my whole heart and attention is the GREAT ALMIGHTY BLACK HORSE call " WaRRioR" tell u one look at that horse.. "BANGZ" there goes my heart.. sorry Colin Farrell u still not that handsome at all!! hahaha... i still prefer to your black horse...

it's been a long time i revealed things that i should have put in.. of cos not the australia trip lahh.. hahah.. though it's more fun.. but i think it's time for me to talk about some issues that been avoiding for sometimes...

i guess u all have know in a way or the other that i'm not a leader anymore.. or even u have not been seeing me around.. do i have regets that i cast aside the leadership, cg or whatever u can think abt??  to me, being a leader or not is not the matter anymore.. i realised it's not the leadership that hooked me on or the pride of it to me... if u asked me to throw the leader's tag away.. i will.. finally to me i realised leader's tag means nothing to me at all it's a solid thing that will crash away.. i dun missed being a leader, i dun missed leading a cg that grows or that multiply or that attendence is good or bad, i dun missed rushing for seats to seat in front, i dun missed building the atmosphere, i dun missed supporting Pst's preaching saying "yes" and "amen".. when everyting of these are cast away.. i really do appreaciate what bro aloy have implanted in me.. discipling me to a leader that was of good quality.. but one thing that i will always cary is that somehow or another i felt that i disappointed him.. but nevertheless "thanks bro aloy for givin me that chance to be the leader!! "..... BUT what i really missed is the presence of God.. dwelling in it where nobody's business is involve only me and God.. that's what i really missed.. that's what i been missing... surely abit here and there of my ex cg's welfare.. hahah... but no matter where i am now.. i still try my best to keep tracks of wat happenin in the church.. but it's half half infor... haha..